2022-08-29

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2022-08-29 08:21 pm
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Decisions are hard

I dreamed this morning that I had moved back to Portland. I was telling myself, well, at least I got out of that house there, and getting in touch with my bodyworker there and telling her I was back.

I've been carrying the dream around all day, wondering. I think what I'm craving is familiarity and ease. I've gotten starbursts of that here. Cindy and Andy are still making Thai curry at farmers markets 17 years later. I bought and ate some despite the ensuing headache. I used to buy from them every Tuesday and Saturday at the Berkeley market, a mainstay of nourishment on several levels.

The privately maintained public water fountain on the bike ride up Tunnel Rd is not only still there, it's been painted with a blue baby elephant and the words "Love, Chloe." Thank you so much, Chloe!

Tears of recognition and gratitude.

And at the same time. Hard )

In conclusion, maybe I'll take this computer upstairs and sit in bed to catch up on email, now that I have wifi again, and rest.