Various updates
Nov. 7th, 2011 09:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
soniaMore web host troubles. The one I picked was blacklisted on a major email provider and couldn't seem to fix it, so I switched to another which was horrendous, and finally disentangled myself and moved to another, where I think I'm settled. I hope. I do have better things to do than moving my entire set of web sites hither and yon and fixing all the problems that arise each time.
Lots of dancing in the last week. Haven't been so social in ages. It was fun. And my hip doesn't hurt! It seems to be better after about 2 years of being very cranky. I did have a colossal headache one day, perhaps as a consequence of encountering various fragrances. I do think I'm getting less sensitive, but every so often, *wham*. I'm starting to wonder if some of those headaches might be migraines. Same pain, different word, but it seems like a big shift.
About a year ago, I gained some weight, enough that I had to shop for new pants, never a fun task. Then, I had more time and inclination to exercise, and gained more weight. My body size varies without direct connection to diet and exercise, so I just adapt as best I can. Lately, again without any obvious shifts in diet or exercise, the old pants are fitting again.
I felt uncomfortable and swollen at the higher weight. I attributed that mostly to internalized fat-hatred and clothing being tight. I had a new insight, though, more of a body feeling than a thought - it feels like at least some of that additional weight was due to inflammation. Which would go along with the gluten-intolerance and sensitivity to fragrances. It feels good to have a value-neutral explanation for gaining & losing weight - it's not about doing something right or wrong.
Little by little, my shoulders are learning to relax and broaden. My unconscious default is to hold them in as tightly as possible so as not to take up any room.
Lots of dancing in the last week. Haven't been so social in ages. It was fun. And my hip doesn't hurt! It seems to be better after about 2 years of being very cranky. I did have a colossal headache one day, perhaps as a consequence of encountering various fragrances. I do think I'm getting less sensitive, but every so often, *wham*. I'm starting to wonder if some of those headaches might be migraines. Same pain, different word, but it seems like a big shift.
About a year ago, I gained some weight, enough that I had to shop for new pants, never a fun task. Then, I had more time and inclination to exercise, and gained more weight. My body size varies without direct connection to diet and exercise, so I just adapt as best I can. Lately, again without any obvious shifts in diet or exercise, the old pants are fitting again.
I felt uncomfortable and swollen at the higher weight. I attributed that mostly to internalized fat-hatred and clothing being tight. I had a new insight, though, more of a body feeling than a thought - it feels like at least some of that additional weight was due to inflammation. Which would go along with the gluten-intolerance and sensitivity to fragrances. It feels good to have a value-neutral explanation for gaining & losing weight - it's not about doing something right or wrong.
Little by little, my shoulders are learning to relax and broaden. My unconscious default is to hold them in as tightly as possible so as not to take up any room.
