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New thought: I'm allowed to buy delight
Aug. 22nd, 2011 08:04 pmMy 2010 word for the year was "flow," by which I meant clients and money and affection and all sorts of good things. I did get a computer contract for the second half of the year that provided great flow of money, and I had a good flow of clients, too. Both the contract and the client flow dried up in early 2011.
My 2011 word for the year is "delight," by which I mean I want all those good things to flow and keep flowing. I'm tired of, "yes, that's great, except for this part that doesn't work at all." I want things to be not just better, not just less awful, but good. All the way to delightful.
2011 started out rocky, but now in August I'm seeing more delight. Less anxiety, more energy, book is almost done, good flow of clients the last few weeks. I'm still using some savings from that contract, though. A steady flow that covers all my expenses would be very delightful!
Anyway, the results from buying those pots & pans last month have been delightful. This month, I'm debating how to carry my own food as well as everything else I need for the annual bike trip to Balkanalia Balkan dance camp. I could pull my trailer or use a backpack, but what I want, the thought that brings delight, is to add more carrying capacity to the bike. Even though it involves spending money for something I don't strictly need.
While I was thinking that over, I had a new thought. My serious, year-long goal is delight. Maybe it's okay to spend money in service of that goal. Shopping itself is usually a hassle, but owning nice things that improve my life does bring me ongoing delight.
I was thinking of a front rack and panniers, but it turns out my bike doesn't have the eyelets for that. Could have sworn it did, but they weren't there when I actually looked. I love the bike in all other ways. So I ordered this "small" (still the biggest in the local store) Arkel handlebar bag in blue. I remember admiring Ian's well-traveled large version years ago as he told me that Arkel bags last for life.
It feels like a priority-changing, life-changing new thought. Maybe my delight matters. It didn't to my parents, and that's where I picked up most of my ideas about money. Their frugality has served me well, but I want to live happily within my means rather than grimly maximizing savings.
Here's to delight!
My 2011 word for the year is "delight," by which I mean I want all those good things to flow and keep flowing. I'm tired of, "yes, that's great, except for this part that doesn't work at all." I want things to be not just better, not just less awful, but good. All the way to delightful.
2011 started out rocky, but now in August I'm seeing more delight. Less anxiety, more energy, book is almost done, good flow of clients the last few weeks. I'm still using some savings from that contract, though. A steady flow that covers all my expenses would be very delightful!
Anyway, the results from buying those pots & pans last month have been delightful. This month, I'm debating how to carry my own food as well as everything else I need for the annual bike trip to Balkanalia Balkan dance camp. I could pull my trailer or use a backpack, but what I want, the thought that brings delight, is to add more carrying capacity to the bike. Even though it involves spending money for something I don't strictly need.
While I was thinking that over, I had a new thought. My serious, year-long goal is delight. Maybe it's okay to spend money in service of that goal. Shopping itself is usually a hassle, but owning nice things that improve my life does bring me ongoing delight.
I was thinking of a front rack and panniers, but it turns out my bike doesn't have the eyelets for that. Could have sworn it did, but they weren't there when I actually looked. I love the bike in all other ways. So I ordered this "small" (still the biggest in the local store) Arkel handlebar bag in blue. I remember admiring Ian's well-traveled large version years ago as he told me that Arkel bags last for life.
It feels like a priority-changing, life-changing new thought. Maybe my delight matters. It didn't to my parents, and that's where I picked up most of my ideas about money. Their frugality has served me well, but I want to live happily within my means rather than grimly maximizing savings.
Here's to delight!
