Incense strikes again

Had to leave dancing because of incense again. I wrote a letter last winter and it was fine after that, but apparently the meditation teacher forgot over the summer or couldn't be bothered or something. I wrote another polite letter just now, quoting the past correspondence at the bottom. We'll see. I simply can't be there with incense in the air. I get headachy and confused and stop having a good time, and then I'm sick for two days.

The interesting thing is, I feel calm about it. I was much more upset about an event earlier in the evening, where a man casually interrupted me and changed the subject during a meeting, and I responded and then added, "I was talking." He sulked. I asked him later if he was offended with me for not liking being interrupted, and he acknowledged that he did in fact interrupt, but he didn't like the way I handled it. "You acted like you were in charge and I should shut up and sit down." Funny, that's exactly what he was doing, actually.

I hate the sick feeling I get when someone is projecting all over me, the "I can't win" feeling. At least I'm learning to affirm to myself that it's not me, it's the situation. Part of me wonders how I could have responded differently, but I think there was no right answer, except not to object at all when he derailed my contribution with something irrelevant and unimportant. Surrender or struggle. :-(

This post brought to you by disappointment and left-over chemical fumes in my system. Bleah!