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Appreciated!
Dec. 18th, 2024 08:59 pmI sang in a Balkan choir concert last night and it went well! I am proud of being brave and showing up, and also of practicing and preparing. When I'm not biking and dancing I have more time to sing. I linked to some of the songs earlier.
Then this morning at work, I presented a document I've been writing at the every two weeks' Demo Day. The document was a technical deep dive on the options to get two different systems to talk to each other, and I presented it at a high level. To my surprise, I got all sorts of kudos for moving the project forward, presenting it in an understandable way, and collaborating with my teammates.
And being thorough. That one made me flinch a bit, because it was used as a negative at my last job. But these folks seem to mean it in a positive way. I hope. I'm just doing the messy unwieldy research that needs to be done in preparation for actually doing the programming work, and maybe that's actually being appreciated.
This afternoon, a friend stopped by to pick up some more boxes and bubble wrap for her impending move, and she brought me a cute glass vase with flowers and said she appreciates my friendship. Again I was surprised and felt like I hadn't done anything special. But it's nice to be appreciated!
There's a part of me that worries about not understanding the rules, when results are more positive than I expect. I guess I can take a breath and enjoy the positive and hope I don't trip over any hidden landmines.
Then this morning at work, I presented a document I've been writing at the every two weeks' Demo Day. The document was a technical deep dive on the options to get two different systems to talk to each other, and I presented it at a high level. To my surprise, I got all sorts of kudos for moving the project forward, presenting it in an understandable way, and collaborating with my teammates.
And being thorough. That one made me flinch a bit, because it was used as a negative at my last job. But these folks seem to mean it in a positive way. I hope. I'm just doing the messy unwieldy research that needs to be done in preparation for actually doing the programming work, and maybe that's actually being appreciated.
This afternoon, a friend stopped by to pick up some more boxes and bubble wrap for her impending move, and she brought me a cute glass vase with flowers and said she appreciates my friendship. Again I was surprised and felt like I hadn't done anything special. But it's nice to be appreciated!
There's a part of me that worries about not understanding the rules, when results are more positive than I expect. I guess I can take a breath and enjoy the positive and hope I don't trip over any hidden landmines.
