Various updates
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soniaMore web host troubles. The one I picked was blacklisted on a major email provider and couldn't seem to fix it, so I switched to another which was horrendous, and finally disentangled myself and moved to another, where I think I'm settled. I hope. I do have better things to do than moving my entire set of web sites hither and yon and fixing all the problems that arise each time.
Lots of dancing in the last week. Haven't been so social in ages. It was fun. And my hip doesn't hurt! It seems to be better after about 2 years of being very cranky. I did have a colossal headache one day, perhaps as a consequence of encountering various fragrances. I do think I'm getting less sensitive, but every so often, *wham*. I'm starting to wonder if some of those headaches might be migraines. Same pain, different word, but it seems like a big shift.
About a year ago, I gained some weight, enough that I had to shop for new pants, never a fun task. Then, I had more time and inclination to exercise, and gained more weight. My body size varies without direct connection to diet and exercise, so I just adapt as best I can. Lately, again without any obvious shifts in diet or exercise, the old pants are fitting again.
I felt uncomfortable and swollen at the higher weight. I attributed that mostly to internalized fat-hatred and clothing being tight. I had a new insight, though, more of a body feeling than a thought - it feels like at least some of that additional weight was due to inflammation. Which would go along with the gluten-intolerance and sensitivity to fragrances. It feels good to have a value-neutral explanation for gaining & losing weight - it's not about doing something right or wrong.
Little by little, my shoulders are learning to relax and broaden. My unconscious default is to hold them in as tightly as possible so as not to take up any room.
Lots of dancing in the last week. Haven't been so social in ages. It was fun. And my hip doesn't hurt! It seems to be better after about 2 years of being very cranky. I did have a colossal headache one day, perhaps as a consequence of encountering various fragrances. I do think I'm getting less sensitive, but every so often, *wham*. I'm starting to wonder if some of those headaches might be migraines. Same pain, different word, but it seems like a big shift.
About a year ago, I gained some weight, enough that I had to shop for new pants, never a fun task. Then, I had more time and inclination to exercise, and gained more weight. My body size varies without direct connection to diet and exercise, so I just adapt as best I can. Lately, again without any obvious shifts in diet or exercise, the old pants are fitting again.
I felt uncomfortable and swollen at the higher weight. I attributed that mostly to internalized fat-hatred and clothing being tight. I had a new insight, though, more of a body feeling than a thought - it feels like at least some of that additional weight was due to inflammation. Which would go along with the gluten-intolerance and sensitivity to fragrances. It feels good to have a value-neutral explanation for gaining & losing weight - it's not about doing something right or wrong.
Little by little, my shoulders are learning to relax and broaden. My unconscious default is to hold them in as tightly as possible so as not to take up any room.
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Date: 2011-11-08 02:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-11-08 09:32 pm (UTC)Boo for web host roulette.
You probably know already, but the Fat Nutritionist really rocks the "what does it mean to be fat-positive and also live with dietary restrictions." The Meals as Love essay has been totally rocking my socks for the past month, helping me reexamine my relationship with food.
Sorry your shoulders were taking the brunt of the "maintain low profile" directive.
My OT just taught me an amazing stretch, but I can't find a pic of it anywhere. Bringing my arms together in front of me vertically, I rest one elbow in the bend of the other. Then I turn both palms inward, so if I was really flexible, my palms could touch. To get more stretch I lift the elbows up.
I guess that's massage oil to Newcastle, eh?
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Date: 2011-11-09 02:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-11-09 02:26 am (UTC)I like the Fat Nutritionist blog a lot. I went back and re-read that article, which led me to the Fantasy of Being Thin article & comments... All good things to be reminded of.
Even though it sounds like a small thing, I am firmly unready to set a time to eat and stick to it. Maybe because it reminds me of eating with my parents, which was very scheduled and very not-fun? I do try to keep food available and pay attention to when I need it. Maybe someday I'll add scheduling too.
My shoulders thank you for noticing.
I like that stretch (if I understood right) and I used to be fairly flexible in that direction, but lately it hurts. Lots of changes happening in there. I think it will be better in the end.