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Here's another song we're singing this time, Nazdrave Ti, Chorbadžijo, "Cheers to You, Master of the House." This is a caroling song with a strong dance rhythm, and I took to it much more happily than Otče Naš. Koleda is the Bulgarian term for the Christmas season. And I love the design of this album cover!

Cheers to you, master of the house!
Oh, Koleda!
We sing to you, we praise God.
As much sand there is by the sea,
May you have as much grain in this house.
As much water there is in the sea,
May you have as much wine in your barrels.
As many leaves as there are in the forest,
May you have as many sheep in your pens.

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The Balkan choir I sing with performed at a center for adults with disabilities on Friday, and we were vocally and enthusiastically received by the audience in their power and manual wheelchairs. It was stressful to prepare the songs for it, but fun once we were there, and I hope we'll do more like that.

One of the songs we sang is Otche Nash, a 4-part setting of the Lord's Prayer in Old Church Slavonic, which is like a mix of Bulgarian and Russian.

When someone proposed learning the song at the ad hoc monthly group a year ago, I was grumpy about having something so fundamentally Christian shoved down my throat, and we put it aside. In this weekly choir we learn whatever the teacher gives us, so I had to make my peace with it. Another singer said she doesn't mind it because it's asking the Universe for good things. I guess so...

Eva Quartet recorded it, and here's a live performance.

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Gina posted this lovely photo of a ramp her dad made for their 18 year old cat. The comments on the original post are worth reading too. <3

Photo of a ramp for an elderly cat )
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Nora Samaran made a new post! On Conflict and Community Fabric. When we value community, we work through conflicts with them not because the individual relationship is important to us, but because the whole community is important to us.
In healthy human community, the kind that so many people say they want, and the kind study after study suggests people living in Western countries feel is missing in their lives, human beings are often in community with people with whom we aren’t individually or personally close, but who nonetheless form part of the larger circle of human bonds that forms the anchor and soilbed of our belonging.


I'm not sure I had read her prior post from 2021, Coercive Persuasion and the Alignment of the Everyday. In it she mentions "How We Show Up" by Mia Birdsong, which I got from the library. I loved the book, about all the different ways we can weave connections with each other rather than focusing on isolated little nuclear families. And it turns out Mia Birdsong lives right here in Oakland! My review.

She also linked to Be careful with each other by Rushdia Mehreen and David Gray-Donald. "How activist groups can build trust, care, and sustainability in a world of capitalism and oppression."
Collective care refers to seeing members’ well-being – particularly their emotional health – as a shared responsibility of the group rather than the lone task of an individual. It means that a group commits to addressing interlocking oppressions and reasons for deteriorating well-being within the group while also combatting oppression in society at large.


I loved her article The Opposite of Rape Culture is Nurturance Culture and I can't believe that was back in 2016. Nine years ago! Anyway, it's great to keep someone's feed on the list even if it seems like they'll never post again, because sometimes they do!
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[personal profile] jesse_the_k asked what's the first thing I enjoyed cooking.

My father had a small enamel pan, cream colored on the inside and orange on the outside, like this one. I don't know where it came from. We didn't have any other pans like it, and it was definitely his, unlike the rest of the pots and pans that just belonged to all of us. It was brought out of the cabinet for scrambled eggs, which in our Germanic household we had for supper, not breakfast.

One of the first things I remember being able to cook on my own was scrambled eggs and ham in that enamel pan. First swirl around a generous pat of butter until it's bubbling hot. Add the chopped ham and stir it as it browns. Then break the eggs directly into the pan and keep stirring. (Don't pre-mix the eggs, and definitely don't add any milk.) When the eggs are softly cooked through, dish up with toast.
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[personal profile] runpunkrun asked if I've read any good books lately, and I've been lucky enough to find several. Ongoing booklog at Curious, Healing.

The one I want to highlight today is Kitchens of Hope by by Linda S. Svitak and Christin Jaye Eaton with Lee Svitak Dean
Subtitle: How transforming ourselves can change the world

This book out of Minnesota is a celebration of immigrant success stories and food from around the world. I haven’t tried any of the recipes yet, but I loved the photos and stories of how people connected with each other and found new places to thrive.

Highly recommended – I’m giving copies for the holidays this year.

Photography of the cooks and their dishes by Tom Wallace
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Mother of GPS, Gladys West, Finally Gets Proper Recognition by Judith Fogel. Did you know GPS was made possible by a Black woman (who is still alive)? I sure didn't!
Gladys West and her husband Ira were both mathematicians at Dahlgren Naval Base, then called Dahlgren Naval Proving Ground. West was hired in 1956. Her extraordinary contributions to the geodetic modeling of the earth became the foundation for the Global Positioning System (GPS). But few knew how much this Black woman changed the way we navigate.

ETA: Sadly, she died in Jan 2026. Dr. Gladys West, Mathematician Whose Work Made GPS Possible, Dies at 95 by Mary Wadland.
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It doesn't seem like posting every day in December is really a thing anymore on Dreamwidth, but I enjoy the challenge of it, so I'm going to try it again this year. I may miss a day here and there.

As is traditional, if you have questions or topics you'd like me to write about, please drop them in comments!
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[personal profile] mrissa posted about her contributions to The Vertigo Project, a generous handful of poems and stories (and journal prompts, and more).

I especially loved the last two stories:

She Wavers But She Does Not Weaken (story), when the waves hit you even on dry land, it's good to have someone who's willing to swim against the current for you

The Torn Map (story), rewriting the pieces of the former world into something new
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The Right to Say "No" by Audrey Watters. A rant about AI, eugenics, and Epstein (no details).
There is a real rot at the core of many of our institutions – and certainly at the core of those powerful players operating within and adjacent to them. "Artificial intelligence" emerges from this rot. It cannot be a bulwark against it.


Why Science’s press team won’t be using AI to write releases anytime soon by Emily Underwood at The Last Word On Nothing.
Every time a translator takes a book and puts it in their own words, they are interpreting the material slightly differently. What we found was that ChatGPT Plus couldn’t do that. It could regurgitate or transcribe, but it couldn’t achieve the nuance to count as its own interpretation of a study.

I think that’s because ChatGPT Plus isn’t in society — it doesn’t interact with the world. It’s predictive, but it’s not distilling or conceptualizing what matters most to a human audience, or the value that we place in narratives that are ingrained in our society. [...]

Now, after this experiment, we’re very against using it. After a year of data, we know it can’t meet our standards. If we ever did plan to use it, we’d have to implement super rigorous fact-checking, because we don’t want to lose reporters’ trust.


The AI Invasion of Knitting and Crochet by Jonathan Bailey in Plagiarism Today.
Creating a pattern requires considering the entire work; each step has to fit with and work with all the others. Blindly selecting the next step without that consideration will, more often than not, fail. This is especially true since AI can’t “test” the pattern after writing it, which is a big part of what humans do. [...]

However, the best and simplest advice is to buy from patternmakers that you trust. If you know someone who is a human making high-quality patterns, turn to them first. Rewarding known human creators rather than chasing the cheapest pattern is the best way to avoid buying AI slop.


Edited to add:
I don't care how well your "AI" works by Fiona Fokus.
No matter how well “AI” works, it has some deeply fundamental problems, that won’t go away with technical progress. I’d even go as far and say they are intentional.


The dark side of AI: Climate chaos, pollution, and injustice by Dwaign Tyndal. "Massive data centers pose serious risks to Black and brown communities."

WorkersDecide.tech, including AI Implementation Bingo. "Frustrated by your employer's generative AI policies? We're here to help you organize."

[personal profile] erinptah's list of a lot more relevant links, content note: teen suicide.

More great links in comments!
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The Crow’s Second Tale by Marissa Lingen, [personal profile] mrissa. A hopeful coming of age story about a very determined young person who finds her own way forward.

The Things You Know, The Things You Trust by Marissa Lingen, [personal profile] mrissa. Shifting and changing science fiction that is also about the present moment.

Open House on Haunted Hill by John Wiswell. At the end, John Wiswell comments, "Off the top of my head I gave them the example that if I wrote a haunted house story, it wouldn’t be like Haunting of Hill House – it would be about a haunted house that was lonely and desperately wanted someone to live in it. One of my fellow authors reached across the table, grabbed me by the hand, and said, “Please write this.” On the train ride home, I did."
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youfeellikeshit.com, a self-care game by Amanda Miklik, based on a twine site by Jace Harr. Step by step questions to help you feel better.

Using the Arousal-Valence Model to Better Your Emotional Intelligence by Dr. Megan Anna Neff. Some aids to naming emotions for people who find it difficult, including an Unpleasant/Pleasant, High/Low Arousal grid.

Finding the Middle Way in Black & White Thinking with Marbling by Cait Klein.
Black and white thinking is a trauma response that is important to break down for our overall happiness and wellbeing. When we are not feeling safe, it’s easy to slide into rigid thought patterns such as everything is either good or bad, friend or enemy, kind or mean, awesome or awful etc. The reality is things are rarely ever all one or the other, and as we break down binary ways of thinking we allow more space for connection and collaboration to move forward in our lives.


Self Compassion and How The Science of Kindness Changes Your Brain interview with Dr. Kristin Neff, audio with summary.

The Collapse of Self-Worth in the Digital Age by Thea Lim.
When I was twelve, I used to roller-skate in circles for hours. I was at another new school, the odd man out, bullied by my desk mate. My problems were too complex and modern to explain. So I skated across parking lots, breezeways, and sidewalks, I listened to the vibration of my wheels on brick, I learned the names of flowers, I put deserted paths to use. I decided for myself each curve I took, and by the time I rolled home, I felt lighter. One Saturday, a friend invited me to roller-skate in the park. I can still picture her in green protective knee pads, flying past. I couldn’t catch up, I had no technique. There existed another scale to evaluate roller skating, beyond joy, and as Rollerbladers and cyclists overtook me, it eclipsed my own. Soon after, I stopped skating.


“To See it All at Once”: Black Southern Placemaking Technologies with Zandria Robinson
It was amazing to me to get to graduate school and to discover that I was a Southerner, and to discover that there was this idea that once all the Black [Southern] people left for the Great Migration, apparently we just didn’t even exist anymore, despite the inconvenient fact of the whole civil rights movement. So I had a bone to pick, and I just continued picking it.


How our noisy world is seriously damaging our health by James Gallagher.
"You have an emotional response to sound," says Prof Clark. Sound is detected by the ear and passed onto the brain and one region – the amygdala – performs the emotional assessment. This is part of the body's fight-or-flight response that has evolved to help us react quickly to the sounds like a predator crashing through the bushes. "So your heart rate goes up, your nervous system starts to kick in and you release stress hormones," Prof Clark tells me.


Women are three times more likely than men to get severe long COVID by Gillian Rutherford.
Through analysis of immune cells, biomarkers in the blood and RNA sequencing, they identified a distinct immune signature in female versus male patients.

They found evidence of “gut leakiness” in the women patients, including elevated blood levels of intestinal fatty acid binding protein, lipopolysaccharide, and the soluble protein CD14 — all signs of gut inflammation that can then trigger further systemic inflammation once they reach the circulatory system.


Opinion | I’m just 16, and I already have too many memories of mass shootings by Lydia Ganser. "It’s easy to offer condolences from afar while doing nothing to stop the guns."

What I Need You To Understand, Notes from Chicago in Late October by Dan Sinker.
There's noise, so much noise, but there's also signal and the signal was that they were here that they were everywhere. Smash and grab jobs happening across the city nearly simultaneously. But the things being stolen aren't jewels, they're lives. Off streets, from yards. One roofer plucked off a ladder. A landscaper thrown to the ground, tackled by a half-dozen men in camo with weapons. Sixteen people on this day. Sixteen people disappeared, from just the northern side of the city and suburbs. More across the entire city.


Unofficial Pluslife FAQ (EN). Very detailed information on Pluslife Covid tests, which are as senstive as PCR tests. Sadly they are not available in the US.
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I had my first-ever personal training session yesterday. It went well! There's a gym one block from me that I've had my eye on ever since it quit being a Crossfit gym and went independent. I was dubious about exercising in an indoor space, but a friend pointed out that their big open warehouse door means that they have a lot better ventilation than most gyms.

I finally got in touch with them, and after some logistical hassles, I had my appointment with a tall, kind, strong young woman. She seemed easy in her body, and calmly gave me instructions and feedback in a way that felt welcoming and safe. I said I wanted it to be gentle and gradual because my body tends toward strains and injury, and she gave me exactly what I asked for. We focused on upper body, and did rows with hanging rings and bench presses with free weights and some pushups at a 45 degree angle because I can't quite do them lowering to bench height. It lasted an hour and I thought I would be sore today. I'm mildly achy, enough to tell me I did something, but not too bad.

I never thought I'd be the kind of person to lift weights or have a personal trainer. I liked being strong when I was moving house, and I'd like to get stronger again without having to pack up everything I own. And if I'm going to do that, I need some personal help to learn how to do it properly. They have some strength classes that I'm hoping to join once I understand the basic movements and how to do them safely for me. And I have some weights at home that I might be able to use in between.

I never had private lessons in anything as a kid. It was a big step for me to start taking singing lessons a few years back, and that has been wonderfully healing, as well as improving my singing over time. Getting some personal training sessions feels like self-love, permission to pay for the help I need instead of trying to tough it out on my own.
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I biked over Grizzly Peak this morning, in November sunshine so warm that I didn't even need my jacket for the usually-cold final descent into Claremont canyon. While Berkeley bathed in glorious sunshine, the Bay hid under a blanket of fog with the Golden Gate Bridge towers and San Francisco skyscrapers peeking out. I love the experience of climbing steadily past cute North Berkeley houses and gardens, with these spectacular views off to the side.

From the top, you can see a panoramic view of the Bay and surrounding cities spread out at your feet. By the time I got there, most of the fog had burned off, just clinging in a line along the Bay Bridge.

I never stopped missing that ride during my years in Portland. I haven't done it in more than a year because of my ankle injury, so I was very happy to be back on that road and still comfortably make it up and over.

Last night I biked across town to a concert of the Iavnana Ensemble, a community choir of 40 local people dedicated enough to learn and perform Georgian songs, plus their teacher and a visiting singer who is one of the foremost American singers of Georgian music. And he's giving a workshop tomorrow for the general public, so I'm going to that.

Earlier this week, Zele, the Balkan and Georgian community choir I'm in, sang four songs as part of a concert and grief ritual for people who have lost loved ones. As I walked over to the venue, and then later walked home, I thought, "This is why I came back."

Last week visiting Ukrainian ensemble Kurbasy performed with Kitka, and then they gave a workshop.

I came back for the amazing performers who come to town, for the workshops and singing groups I can participate in, and for the spectacular bike rides and scenery. I miss the vibrant fall colors of Portland, and it's fun to visit friends there now and again, but I am very glad I came back to the Bay Area.
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A friend responded to me with uncharacteristic and intense anger a couple of days ago and I don't know why (yet). While I'm waiting on more information, I've been thinking about other times I've faced intense anger.

I don't remember many. One time, I was exhausted and needed to leave, and a friend said if I left, the friendship was over. I thought we would work it out after getting a chance to rest, but despite several attempts, he stuck to the friendship being over.

Another time, a friend was angry that I couldn't continue in a painful situation. Despite attempts to talk about it, that friendship eventually ended too.

I remember being angry as romantic relationships deteriorated, but I don't remember partners communicating anger and working it through. Or responding well to my attempts to communicate anger and work it through. Which is why I'm not in any of those relationships anymore.

I have a felt sense of quicksand in relationships (of any sort). Like, "oops, this ground has gotten treacherous, time to back up." Looking back, I think that's been when people are angry. But they don't say, "I'm angry at you for X and want things to be different going forward." They emotionally withdraw, and eventually cut things off. Sometimes it's been when I felt safe enough to express a boundary of my own, and found out that wasn't safe after all.

I suppose the most... not positive, exactly, but open experiences of anger were as a bodywork practitioner. If a client got angry, I held space and listened and responded as best I could. But that's a different dynamic than relationships out in the world. I do have the basic tools of active listening and trying to stay grounded.

I'm not feeling super hopeful about the current situation. Do you have stories or resources about successfully working through anger?

ETA: I wrote a short apologetic, puzzled email and got back that it's all good, just an intense and exhausting week. Whew. I mean, I got blasted with *something*, but good to know it wasn't about me and therefore no longer my problem.
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Whether it's the environmental destruction, the extraction of private information into the public soup of things AI might spit out, or the fake and/or wrong answers, there are a lot of reasons to turn AI off.

Consumer Reports: How to Turn Off AI Tools Like Gemini, Apple Intelligence, Copilot, and More by Thomas Germain.

Even if you've done this already, it's worth taking a look, because the people pushing AI use trickery to keep turning it on after people wisely opt out.
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I just learned that the city motto of Oakland is Oakland Love Life, as described on the city's website.
Love Life Acknowledgement (Abridged Version)

We acknowledge that in service to our beloved city of Oakland, and all its citizens, adhering to the city of Oakland's official motto, "Oakland Love Life" we enter into this space committed to embody love as our guiding principle.

We acknowledge Love Life as our motto as we denounce violence in all forms and the conditions that create it.

We acknowledge that when we demonstrate love, we also exhibit respect and kindness towards each other.

We commit to acts of love as an intentional force to generate tangible solutions, in regards to all of our actions.

We recognize as leaders, we must set an example and precedent for those in community who have entrusted us with these duties.

We welcome and appreciate all contributions to this space, and even when expressing disagreement, we request that we lead with love in your heart.

We seek to find common ground, and tangible solutions that demonstrate love for our city, its residents, and all constituents.

We acknowledge that when we lead with love we are able to uplift a thriving city rooted in equity, equality, justice, inclusion, and opportunity for all.

We commit to the action of "Love Life" as our motto and mantra.


Love Life Acknowledgement (long version) PDF.

I'm glad that Oakland is a Sanctuary City, and California is a Sanctuary State. I'm glad that Barbara Lee is Oakland's mayor, with her experience in national politics.
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Via [personal profile] siderea, 35 min talk by Ed Yong on what it was like to report on the pandemic while valuing curiosity, empathy, and kindness, what it was like to step down from his job at the Atlantic, and what he's doing now. What an amazing human being.

Also, because my respect for Ed Yong reminds me of how I respected Ursula K Le Guin, a blog post of hers I ran across recently. A Rant About “Technology”, 2005.
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We had a very cool summer in the Bay Area! While much of the country is baking, Berkeley is bundling up by Daniel Ekonde and Sara Martin. When the rest of the country is hotter than normal, it pulls in cool air from the Pacific and it's cold along the coast.

Seattle's Dunava, my favorite Balkan choir in the Pacific Northwest, went to Bulgaria and Serbia this year and they're writing about it on their blog. Dunava Balkan Choir blog 2025.

Via network, ran across a recommendation for FlossGrip dental floss holder from Brussels. International shipping looks affordable, not sure how, and I might try it out.

Halbuki Linguist Cooperative offers online language classes for less available languages such as Ukrainian, Quechua, Albanian, Turkish, etc. Recommended by the same friend who is writing a language learning app.

Babatunde Olatunji, Jin-Go-Lo-Ba (video, music only). Fantastic Nigerian drummer. We went to see him perform in DC when I was a kid, and I've never forgotten his gorgeously rhythmic name which sounds like a drumbeat itself, and the way the drumming filled the amphitheater and resonated in my body.

NPR Founding Mother Susan Stamberg has died by David Folkenflik. Growing up in the DC area, we heard Susan Stamberg, Cokie Roberts, Nina Totenberg, and Linda Wertheimer on the radio all the time. I didn't realize it was unusual to hear women announcers. My belated thanks to these pioneers who filled my childhood with their resonant kind voices.
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Y'all may remember [personal profile] siderea's prescient, detailed, actionable coverage of the Covid pandemic as it developed. Check out her pestilence tag for historical and recent posts.

Given her track record, I am paying very close attention to [personal profile] siderea's new post The Essequibo (Buddy-ta-na-na, We Are Somebody, Oh): Pt 1 about how Nicolas Maduro, president of Venezuela, is trying to start World War Three.

Ohhhhh, this is why the US military is sinking Venezuelan "drug boats."

No preparation advice (yet). I suppose preparing for war looks a lot like preparing for a pandemic. Stock up on essentials, and build community connections.
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